She hates this, and hates herself.
What she doesn’t hate is him.
So she’ll do it, and thank him afterward. Tomorrow, she’ll go out of her way to ask him for more, just because she knows he likes it.
A dim, distant part of her mind cringes and screams, begs and pleads her not to do it, but she’s learned to shut that part out.
The thing about self-esteem is that when you don’t have it, you can see how worthless it really was. It’s just her opinion, and what sane person would care what she thinks?
Certainly not her.
His approval is the only thing that matters.
I dont post gifs often, but this one is truly fantastic. Great description as well.